For some time, all of my posts here carry the intention to become a video. I’ve been extremely inspired by Van Neistat and the work he’s done with Tom Sachs over the years. But his current YouTube on the Spirited Man is such a deep motivation for me. There’s so much thought and preparation to it, and it makes me feel as if I’m stepping into a plane of art films that haven’t been touched for so long.
I’ve been watching a lot of Atlanta since getting Disney Plus as well, so this huge idea of cinematography and properly laying out shots is something I’m thinking hard about. I guess I had to stop just doing top down keyboard sound tests, but really get into a narrative of story telling.
Which begs the question: what’s the point and purpose of YouTube? Is it for story telling and presentation? Or is it for creative, artistic expression? I am thoroughly afraid of placing my art on that platform, because I sincerely am quite afraid of the comments it might attract, or not. I don’t know if I want people to watch it, I don’t know if I can handle other people’s processing of my thoughts without that two hour long conversation that usually follows when I actually have the time to meet and chat with someone.
But until I try, I’ll never know. And that’s just something I need to approach in time. Do I want to? Perhaps, and I appreciate that keyboards was a great starting point. But now I need to really think a bit more than that, because I really want to share more than a sound test keyboard video.
I think I want to bear my soul, and not for anyone else but me and God. Let’s take it one day at a time I guess.