Tag: thoughts
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Managing my expectations
I expect myself to not succeed sometimes. I think that there are many other people who have worked harder than me, and they’ve produced a lot better than mine. But at the same time, I’ve gotten access through friends and other social networks. Other times, I’ve been told that my work is good, and I…
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Growing older
One of the perks of growing older is deciding to say no to a lot more things than before. I’ve said yes to many opportunities in my twenties. I’ve tried and tested out many things, joined many committees and working groups, talked with people of different ages, backgrounds, and professions. And my take away is…
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Why 35
My sleep deprived brain decided to write this post about why I chose this year to start doing this. I have a range of answers. First, I think it was Casey Neistat who started doing his vlog when he hit 35. I did actually think about vlogging, but then I thought about all the editing…
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Creative Woes
I don’t think I’ve felt so nervous presenting new work for some time. The current sensing is pretty okay, from the people that I’ve showed my work to. It’s a whole range of things actually, but the ideas running in my mind are a lot more personal. It feels like I’m a lot more exposed,…
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Anxious: More thoughts on new work
There’s this sense of anxiety when I think about making something new. Being able do a sequel, a repeat, a part two, it all seems a lot more manageable, but at the same time I can imagine being extremely bored. But starting afresh makes me feel sick inside. The same way that I have performance…
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Life updates: Third week of 2024
It’s such a mind boggling thing sometimes, when life turns out in a direction you’ve never expected. Somewhere last year, I told Clarice that I was so sure I have something wrong with my thyroids, and that’s why I have a lump under my chin. Clarice laughed, and I searched and it seems like it…
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the new year: obligations away?
I was having some trouble with my back end, so this look of the site is back again. I’ll probably edit it somewhere along the week, just for a fresh-er start. But back to this for now. It’s the first year I didn’t wish Q happy birthday. For the past eight to nine years, I’ve…
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Sorting things out.
I think it’s been awhile since I’ve done a full site refresh, and I think of all the things to do at the end of the year, this is really one of them. I was looking through other sites and other artists and how they laid out their work, and I think I’d like to…
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Options and Choices: an overload of gaming options.
I’ve been really stuck deciding where I should publish my thoughts, and if they should even be published at all. But I find this as my safest place, because it is, after all, my blog. I don’t have to worry about the theme, or the direction, or anything else in specific because I have total…
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Misinformed Opinions and Choices.
Today I went to a mall in an attempt to get some new art materials. I actually looked up the store online, and I checked Google Maps to make sure I got all the timings right. But lo and behold, the entire mall was under construction. Worst part is that I was just at this…
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Planning the day away
Sometimes I forget what I need to do, and I end up spending a lot of time thinking and working around things instead of doing the actual things that I need to do. Sometimes, I don’t even make the lists of what I need to do, and instead, I end up sitting down with no…
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Talking about the thing that I am struggling to talk about
It’s day three of trying to draw or create, or be creative in some aspect or another. Honestly, did not do anything creative today, other than just think a whole lot, and I wrote a whole lot too. I guess I will end today with a lot of writing just to get myself going. and…
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I tried to draw today
I sketched a bit in church today, and there’s just something else about sketching in real life. I don’t know if its the same as when I’m just doodling about and just trying to think, but I do feel like it might not be the same as a daily drawing discipline. Or maybe it is.…
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Understanding myself: Moving past anger
A range of things I have been wanting to figure out is who I am as a whole, and what makes me “me”. There’s a lot of ways of figuring this out, but most of the time, I just enjoy writing a journal, or keeping track of myself somewhere, somehow. A few years ago, I…
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another cold rainy day
Actually the last few cold rainy days were quite some time away. But there’s always a certain dread in the cold rainy days. It’s hard to get out of the house cause you’ll most definitely get wet along the way. It’s hard to will yourself to get out of bed because it’s just so nice…
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An Old Routine: A Keyboard A Day
Today I woke up and remembered something that I had forgotten quite some time back. There was a time where I would put a new keyboard together before I started work. At that time, I think I was going through many things mentally, and this past week, I felt some of that old anxiety creeping…
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Learning from Sadness and Pain
Today I spent some time with my friend, and just listening to him and how he is working through a really rough patch in life. I won’t share about his problems for sure, but I will share about what I learnt when I went through my own times of grieving and sadness. There is always…
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10 minute post
Started to write this at 1141PM on 2 Sep: Today was a super long day. We spent the day at a wedding, and then Clarice and I both went to Artcade and Open Fields markets. These were pretty different markets, and I enjoyed myself there in a big way! By big, I mean that I…
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A return to Jalan Minyak for a minute
Today we ran around a bit; I had forgotten to update my residential address, and ended up having to go to Jalan Minyak once again to do my voting. I saw my ex-neighbour’s son, the neighbours were in the hospital, because Uncle had some medical issues. Going back to Jalan Minyak, it really hit me…
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Modern Times
Perhaps I should return to blogging everyday, because that really gave me a consistency of some sort. Along the lines of drawing weekly. That consistent discipline really made me develop in ways that I never really thought would happen. But it’s hard when I’m running around being busy all the time. I guess that’s no…
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Busy Busy Busy
I don’t think I’ve ever thought I would have gotten this busy this year. I’m in the middle of setting up three collab zine groups, and maybe even getting a fourth. I think at the start of the year, I didn’t even expect one to exist. And all this development was definitely not because I…
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Biographies and Legacy
I spent the weekend watching two documentary/biography pieces. One was Anthony Bourdain’s Roadrunner, and the other was Bohemian Rhapsody, covering Queen’s rise to fame. The Queen one definitely had Freddie Mercury as the main character. Both shows had some very interesting themes about the human condition and where one finds themselves as a creative. The…
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Talking, talking, talking
Interestingly enough, in my church, I’m not widely known for my art and design anymore. That’s not a bad thing to me, because sometimes I don’t know if I could match the tastes of my church’s preferences. Instead, for the past few years, I’ve been doing a lot of talking and relationship building work. I’ve…
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The competing thoughts
I’ve been reading a lot, and there’s a common thread that has been coming up. It’s about the things that one collects, and ends up hoarding over time. The value is definitely in the eye of the beholder, but at the same time, there’s a real issue because of the amount of baggage stuck behind…
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Who is the Audience?
I’ve been hiding away from my writing here for some time because I think I have started to lose the answer to this question right now. This is not specific to my blog, but more for my creative self as a whole. I think I am questioning the purpose of why I make, especially as…
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Change
Making a change on where this blog would be placed on the site really affects the way I think about updating it. Previously, I’d just be faced with it straight up, and I’ll be thinking of blogging every day. But now that I’m tucking it away under a blog tab, it’s really something else to…
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Leading by example
I don’t think it’s super easy to describe what happens when you step into a role of leadership. Or how it is when you have to gather a group of people and convince them that you’re doing it right, and they should be listening to you. Let me attempt to describe it: It is impossible.…
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some changes
So I started do some adjusting around the site as a whole, kinda to get myself a bit more visibility in the right areas, or so I hope. The blog will still be a blog, and I’ve got a clear link for it now. But instead, all other areas are a bit more defined. Basically…
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Keeping it up
There’s always so much work that could be done, and sometimes getting started is difficult, but I always think that maintaining is the hardest. Here are some thoughts I am having, as I try to motivate myself through my own afternoon humps. Motivations Digging deep to find why I’m doing something is always helpful. It…
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on contentedness
I have this there where I like getting new things. I mean that in every way, just brand new items, fresh out of the box. Going for new experiences not so much, but items and objects that are new are definitely up my alley. At the same time, I really like things that are ages…
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productivity on F1 days
Today’s a specific topic, just to give myself a bit more time to think about what I want to say about my Vietnam holiday. It’s actually F1 race season, and last weekend at this time, I was watching some of the craziest practice races on the Baku circuit. On Sunday, after arriving in Vietnam, I…
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More thoughts on TikTok TED Talk
One of the more interesting points that Shou Chew from TikTok expressed on the talk was about how the platform rewards those with talents. Initially, I thought this quite a lot of nonsense, especially because the kind of videos that get recommended to me for things like keyboards and the like, can actually be quite…
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Decision Fatigue
When I woke up today, I was really spoiled for choice on which of my many hobbies I wanted to work on! There was a part of me that wanted to work on my keyboard, because I had just gotten the Cherry Nixie Switches. I thought to put them in a board and do a…
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Tick Tock TikTok?
I just watched the TED Talk with the TikTok CEO, and it’s quite an interesting set of things he brings up. He talked about how the app actually scans your face as you use it. I mean I should have guessed it before, considering the filters that have been on for ages. But I guess…
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Revisiting Purpose
It’s been some time since I’ve written here, and today I was reminded why. I’ve lost the purpose of why I started writing here, and I am quite sure now why I would like to start writing again. I want to write here to explain why and what I think about when I do the…
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Questions about keyboards that I still have today – Mar 2023
There are some things that I’ve been thinking really hard about, especially in the past few months of work, and with keyboards: When people were in the keyboard hobby in the 90’s, how did they stick around interested for so long? I am really learning so much about perseverance through this hobby, and learning how…
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Back to Basics
I’m typing on a mechanical keyboard once again. It took some time, but finally, finally, back to some 3-4mm travel. No more flat laptop keyboards to survive through the day. I was wondering why this matters so much to me, and I think it comes down to some basic things that I tend to live…
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Growing up Part 982345897234
I don’t think anyone ever prepares you for the multiple times that you have to go through different changes, learning different things and different parts of your life. I guess some people warn you, like your parents, or family members who are concerned enough to say something. But it’s not like we actually listen to…
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Connections
I always wonder who comes to this site, and how you found me. If you’ve read this, just comment and let me know. I’ve been thinking about it because I think on this site, on this page, I’ve got such a wide range of interests and thoughts, and I have no idea what draws people…
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Making things up
What a click bait title! O-M-G! But I think sometimes when I write here, or if I’m just talking about things that I like, sometimes it feels like I’m making things up. Not that I’m lying about things, but it feels as if there’s only that much that’s really going on. Maybe the feeling of…
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My Bad
I’ve been avoiding writing for a few days now. I have some idea why, and it’s related to why my videos go up slow on YouTube as well, and why I don’t post anything on Instagram much either. I think I’m dealing with my disappointments of the previous occasions. I don’t think I’m that good…
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Birds of a Feather
I have this idea that we will always meet the people that we enjoy meeting. Not because we’re actively looking out for them, but our lifestyles will make the world spin in a similar direction. The paths would cross, and we would find ourselves filtered through the different times and places. It would be a…
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Sunshine and Rainbows
Sunshine is really hot. Rainbows come after some seriously heavy or constant rain, and then the sun shines after that, then you get rainbows and tonnes of humidity in the air. Today is one of those days when everything is just so darn heavy, and just beats consistently on you. Like a rattly spacebar on…
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Reliving memories
Today feels like a day from the past. Still another day in the army, but it feels like the days from long ago. A decade even, and it feels like humans are still the same. Everyone does things in the same way and behaves the same. Little actions that get you annoyed, or small inconveniences…
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Lighter Load, Heavier Heart.
Today comes as a huge mixed bag of emotions. There are some parts today that I’m really annoyed with. There are also some parts that I wish I could have more of. I’m on my Reservist at this time. That’s where all the Singaporean males are called back to the National Service, our Army. We…
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Stretched Like Pizza
There are days like today, where my mind is just really pulled. It’s days like this when I question if I was a good explainer, a good communicator of any sort. If communication’s basis is how well people understand what you’re saying, I feel like I failed today in some big ways. It felt like…
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Today’s Tough Thought
How do you tell someone that they’re not good at something that they think they’re good at? An example of this is someone who thinks that they’re good at social engagements, but unfortunately, they’re actually quite socially awkward. I find this specific example very difficult to explain to people, because their perception of what made…
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Unfinished Business
Finish the task at hand before starting a new one. I think this is the line I have the most trouble with sometimes. I have a million things on hand, and I keep having to find separate times to finish different bits of it. I hate it, and I find that sometimes one of the…
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Simple Fridays
were never really possible to begin with. Because most of the time, Fridays are spent rushing around, making sure a range of things are happening at exactly the right times. What makes it even crazier really is that today I had my intern come over to learn how to use design softwares, and I had…
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4 Minute Post
Time has been really tight today, and I would say it is by choice. I was slow in the morning, and it felt like the day really snowballed in many ways. One of the most surprising things today was that a cat came into our house, and was stuck under our chest of drawers. Then…
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Revisiting Memories
Just watched The Matrix today with Clarice. It was really quite interesting to rewatch many of the sequences that I had remembered as a child. And to pair them with scenes from Matrix Resurrections, it was really something I didn’t expect to recall in specific ways. The Matrix does hold a special place in my…
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Relative Time
It feels like today passed really quickly, and even more than that, we’re already into the second month of the year. Every day passes as if I’m on a skateboard rolling downhill. It doesn’t help that the days are filled with different types of meetings, and I’m just in the capsule of my room or…
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Chinese Reunion Dinners
As a Chinese person, I have the luxury of celebrating the Chinese Lunar New Year. Luxury of stuffing myself with a multitude of reunion dinners, where the pure aim is to eat as much food as possible, and to commend your family for their great cooking. At the same time, there’s the constant talk about…
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Bad Influences
There’s some major ideas of what is good, and what is right. And most of the world is willing to get behind most morally good things. But sometimes, you get some really dark and weird influences, like Filthy Frank: It’s mean, it’s racist, its everything, but at the same time you know its satire, and…
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Staycation Ends
Today started out fine, but man it snowballed through. Thankfully it ended okay, but going through the hump of the middle of the day was really not easy. We almost couldn’t find a way to get out of the airport, the areas were all boarded up to direct the human traffic flow. But it meant…
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Now It’s a Holiday! (Taking leave from work amidst a pandemic)
When taking a break from work, especially in this COVID situation, it always feels as if you’re not really off from work, or it feels as if there’s no point being away from work. But I deeply disagree with that, because there’s too much of a clash, from too many things. The compartmentalized part of…
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A HOT day out
Today was so hot. I felt my skin burning under the sun, and the moment I hit the shade, it really felt so cool. The only time I’ve felt sun this hot and scorching was when I was in Australia. It was a dry heat too, so maybe that’s why I thought of Australia too.…
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Gratefulness
I really feel handicapped at times, when I want to make or progress in a creative direction. I feel this sense of a lack of time, a lack of resources, and just don’t have the right things in hand. Then I go on this spree and buy a million things to make sure that I…
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Anti Me
There are days that are good, and I feel at ease, But right now, my days are off by quite a tangent, and I am not me. There seems to be a different version, Something maybe broken, but probably, its just me being anti me. As much as I’ve been able to write some of…
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Directions
Where is this going? Is there a need for it to go a certain way? What are the benefits? Am I enjoying the present? These are some of the questions that I was asking myself at the start of the day, and surprisingly enough, I think I was forced to answer these questions for myself…
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Special and Sad
I’ll do a few more posts on how sad it is to be different from people, then later I’ll see what else I can make sense of in happier ways. Feeling like you’re always on the outside I would think that everyone actually deals with this, but sometimes being the person that speaks up and…
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The Pains of Peculiarity
In line with what I was saying yesterday, there’s some very specific things to think about for one to actually be different. Only the expressed unique being is unique. It doesn’t matter whatever the internal thoughts are, because many are thinking the same things. But it’s the one who lives them out that really makes…
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Unique
What makes me special? What makes anything different? Are we even different? Or is everything the same? From my youth, I understood that people always viewed being special as something important. At the same time, people also viewed people who didn’t fit in as weird. Special and weird were sometimes correlated, but self perceptions were…
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How much does one diversify? I honestly think that there’s a lot that I think about that I don’t really express too much. That’s really because I have so many thoughts on so many things. I think many people are like this too, and sometimes, we dismiss thoughts that might not match our character. But…
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Planned Processes
So here’s my balance to yesterday’s creative meanderings: There’s definitely a part of me that over plans everything. I think way too much over too many small things and I am always almost all over the place because of those thoughts. I’m either all over the place, or very prepared, because I’ve thought of the…
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Creative Late Night Posting
Man! Doing a daily post is really something I found difficult last time, and now, its still something I need to put some effort into to get it right. Almost missed today’s post and I had a lot of good thoughts that I wanted to place here but the day is almost over and I…
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Momentum
What do you do on the days when you don’t feel like doing any work? It’s not that we’ve been lazy (yes, I dragged you into this), but maybe we’ve just done enough. There’s no more need to do any more. The cool weather, with a nice touch of sun to light up the home,…
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Reset
2 days of not blogging makes me think harder about what I want to blog when I blog. I don’t know if it should be as daily logging, or just a place to put my thoughts. Personally, I think it might need to be something like a mix of both. But the journal aspect of…
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Aims and Purposes
Whenever I have a meeting, or start a discussion of some sort, there’s always that question of what the point of the meeting is. Or maybe what do we hope to get out of it, after the meeting. After some time, one of the most ironic things that I’ve realised, is that the meetings with…
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Coffee on Hot Days
Why do I do these things to myself? I just wrote a (fake) 10 things to do to survive hot Singapore, and yet the next morning when I wake up I make a hot cup of coffee. The amount of sweat that I keep giving out is intense, and I really just can’t deal with…
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Thresholds & Credibility
These are the two learning points today. What are the limits and thresholds to what I am willing to go through as a human being, and the other is the credibility of myself as a human being. On Thresholds After at certain point of going through some sort of difficult encounter, I need to ask…
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Off Day Post Day
Still writing without my pinky. Honestly it’s really not that easy, because I do use my left pinky to hit a lot of the letters. I’m trying to make up for it by using my right pinky to type more instead. Today is a pretty good day to try different things. Clarice and I have…
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The Littlest One
I had no idea how much I really needed my pinky for, until yesterday and today, when I’ve sliced it. Strangely enough, I was watching a video from Reddit, where a guy makes a whole new hand for himself, after the insurance companies deemed that it was not essential for him to have fingers. Anyway,…
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A little earlier!
I have some time literally set aside right now, to get things sorted out a bit. It’s great, that I can write, and that I have a good half hour or so, just to start things going. But it doesn’t really mean that I can type endlessly for a straight half hour. I usually take…
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Success
I think if I define my blog into different areas, and start to build specifically on some topics, it’ll become one of those really typical self help blogs that I honestly don’t always agree with. But I can’t help myself, I really do think about these topics, and they do mean a lot to me.…
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Today’s almost done…
And I almost didn’t post! It’s been a whirlwind of a day today. I really feel it. I’m writing in bed, because I decided to bring the iPad in bed, and just writing away on the HHKB because I miss typing on this thing. Every now and then I forget where my fingers are supposed…
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Old Stuff Part 2
Talking about things that age well, keyboards fall into this range too. Most keyboards get smoother over time, as you use them more and more. But some others, like the one I am typing on right now, is just really old, and some of the keys don’t register the same as the others. Like the…
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Waves of Life
There’s times when I’m really quite disciplined to get things done consistently through the day or week. And there are times when I just don’t feel like doing anything for another range of time. I think I mask this quite well by being competent at most things, but otherwise, it’s actually really quite a bummer.…
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Which comes first? The Chicken, or the Egg?
Or in my case, does the keycaps come first, or is it the keyboard? I’m legit stuck on which keycaps I should get, and honestly I wish there were other ways around it. I don’t want to get any more keyboards because I’ve already got a ton. But some of the keycap options are just…
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Blast from the Past
If you didn’t realise by now, there’s actually tweaked paragraph spacing between the paragraphs in this site’s reading. It’s because I was going through it the other day, and I saw how close everything was and I really didn’t like it. It was too tight, and I know too much about typography to leave it…
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Another Hot Day
There are days like today, where I just sit there and feel the heat pour over me. I just showered to get myself going, and to just feel a bit more fresh. But I just feel damp after. It just feels like the sun is covering me with a thick hot wet blanket, sucking away…
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Bubble Boys
I shall coin a new term, and I’m not going to research it right now. I thought just to put my idea out here straight away, and just to define what I think, and later I might read an article or two or three about what I’m talking about here. Bubble Boys Definition: Men, of…
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Old Habits…
I always end up buying things, or I end up doing things in a certain way that I might not necessarily think is the most effective or efficient. That doesn’t mean that they’re bad, but the mind or the body reverts to something that they’re used to. I don’t think it’s always a fair statement…
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The Comfort of Strangers
Yesterday I had two occasions where I saw myself comforting strangers in two extremely different circumstances. The Man A man boarded the train that I was on, and stood near the doors, leaning on the side. When he boarded, there was a whiff of alcohol that came in with him, and after some time, it…
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The False Impression of Choice
Sometimes, it really doesn’t make sense if we think about the idea of choice. Do we really have it? Do you really have a choice to make the decisions that you do make? Or more precisely, is there really a choice? For example, having options to choose between what foods to eat at a food…
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One thought away
Maybe its yesterday’s long post on Steve Jobs that is making me think this, but I am currently thinking: Some of the world’s best ideas are just one thought away. It’s not that far. It’s just another step and we have to hit that step somehow. Daily blogging mixed in with typing on a RealForce…
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The beauty that the Artists draws from
How do you get inspiration, and how does this propel you to do better work? — — — Wow so I wrote this post in 2017, July. I can’t remember what exactly I was aiming for, but this gist is something that I find so hard even now to think about. I mean like, how…
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How Time Flies
It doesn’t really fly, but it moves so quickly and it’s as if I’m sitting in a time machine every day. It’s moving at the pace of one second a second, but every moment just moving on and on as we drift through space on this planet. Nostalgia and regret; the two biggest enemies on…
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The Relaxed Position
Today was a day that I really wanted to try something new: I wanted to try to be as relaxed as I possibly could. I wanted to just be a teenager again, and watch TV shows as I ate leftovers from the fridge. I wanted to just chill and take naps where I felt like…
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Finding a Personal Space
I think it’s always something that I struggle with. While I might be friendly, sometimes I find it hard to share what is really on my mind. I think I lean towards different people’s preferences a lot of the time. Today we had a time of reflection, as part of work. During that time, I…
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Mango’s on an Apple Tree
There’s always this saying that you can’t expect an apple tree to grow mangos, and in that same way, we shouldn’t not expect something unnatural out of someone. As much as we think that, we also keep asking people to get out of their comfort zones. Isn’t that similar, or at least asking an apple…
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Being Absolutely Trivial
It really makes me happy to have something new in my hands. Something so strange about it. I just enjoy it, and I look forward to it. I love the things that I materially have in my hands, and there’s a part of me that gets more and more bonded to the things I use.…
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If not for me, then who?
There’s this phrase thrown around whenever I go back for reservist, or I find myself in a situation where obligations are placed: “If it’s not me, then who?” The idea is that if the person doesn’t do that job, or take up that role or appointment, then who will do it? And it will end…
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What happens after?
I think one of the most frightful things that we’ve put ourselves through is making something end. I think that’s the main reason why TV shows last forever, we enjoy that stability, that continuation of everything, and maintaining things. Sometimes that’s the reason why we like to just get stuck in many things, and take…
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How do you combine interests?
I’ve been thinking for a long time, how do I make sense of the many interests that I have? There’s so many things to do, and so little time in a day. How do I decide what to do each day, and how do I decide which one takes more priority over the other? One…
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Free
There was a time when I was considering writing as a side gig, like maybe a possible thing that I could get into. Not so much income, but just another skillet to develop for possible business? Like for fun, the same way I do drawings and things like that. That thought was put through the…
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Produced Productivity
I find myself always thinking about what I should be doing, and how much more of it. It stems from the idea of being as productive as possible, and how I wish I could maximize my time in the best ways possible. We should be doing as much as we can, as often as we…
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General Updates #1
I think it would be good to do a certain sense of consistency back again in these thoughts that I place here on this side of things. And this might mean coming up with somewhat of a template to go along. So I’ll begin by introducing some of the things that I’ve been watching, or…
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Hello?
Does anyone even read these posts anymore? I think one of the worst things that I have installed into my site is the back end stats management. It just sits there telling me that no one is coming in. But I’m not really looking for people to come in right? I’m trying to make my…
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Typing in Bed
This sounds absolutely ludicrous, but after years, I am finally typing in bed again. It’s a thing because when I was much younger, say about 17, 18 years old, I used to love typing in bed, and just spilling my thoughts out. I would write an email newsletter to a range of friends and acquaintances.…
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A Post Written in a Blur
Today, I cleared my IPPT. It is the Individual Physical Proficiency Test, which all Singaporean Males, or those serving our National Service need to take annually. This test’s window is within birthday to birthday, and man, I am so tired out from it. Today, I also did my work, needing to speak at a session.…
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After Some Time…
After some time, we get used to things. We become familiar, and we understand how or why something goes a certain way. After some time, emotions and excitement fades. We take things for granted, and we take that as the norm, how things should be. After some time, it’s good to take a moment to…
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Decompressing Time
I’ve been picking up running again, and it’s really been some time since I’ve done any long runs. I’ve been doing runs every now and then, but nothing consistently, and the past two weeks have been me trying my best to get these runs in. Because of that, my heels are just dead. I’ve got…
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Constantly Communicating
I feel it, deep inside. This constant communication that we are linked to in the modern day. Can you imagine years ago, when the Telephone was first being invented? At that time, the ability to call into your friend’s home must have seemed like a huge invention. And over time, it became a hassle when…
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My 2nd Anniversary
In case you did not know, I am married. Married for two years at that. It’s something that I am extremely proud about, because I think making a marriage work for two years is a lot of effort. There were many times when I feel like just throwing everything away and just calling it quits.…
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The Haunting Past
Every now and then, I sit down and look through the things that I have done before. I don’t usually plan these sessions. I don’t think anyone intentionally goes through a heart wrenching time to reflect on the things that are totally shameful internally. I might be cleaning my room, and I stumble on a…
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Missing the Thrill
When I started looking at keyboard videos, I was really keen on watching this guy: I mean Japanese, with really aesthetic videos, and that sweet keyboard sound? What’s not to like? And every time I watched his videos, I imagined that would be me some day, getting to type on a really nice keyboard, and…
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OUTPUT BEFORE INPUT
I’m a sucker for Tom Sachs, and for Morning Routines. So this one is really up my alley in the weirdest way possible. I haven’t been good at restraining myself with social media before I start my work and my thoughts, but this is really a great reminder for me to think more, to produce…
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Internalized Thoughts
There’s different layers that I think we often hide behind as humans. There’s a certain front that I hope people would perceive from interacting with me, there’s a facade of sorts. It’s not bad, but the facade’s usually there because there’s other things that we’re thinking about. Maybe it’s the food we ate that we…
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Feedback
The last post had a bunch of typos, and sounds so weird, but I only knew that with feedback from my wife. Thanks to her, I now know that it sounds like I wrote it drunk. And I think that’s something I wish more people told me more often. Do I sound drunk all the…
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One Day
One day, life would be a lot easier the others. One day, we would be able to have good ideas, and no one would shit on them, because they would have other good ideas too. One day, we would be able to be ourselves, expressing ourselves, our thoughts and our feelings, and everyone else would…
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A Piece of My Mind
What should be the medium of things on YouTube? The other day I had watched a video on the way cinematography is done on YouTube, and there’s this idea of having things done in presentation style. I thought it was really interesting, because I’ve always liked Casey Neistat videos, and I never really knew or…
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A Bit of a Break
When someone does something like Pomodoro Timers, or one of the productivity hacks, there’s always this encouragement to take a break as you need it. I like that idea, but I find it so hard to do that. It’s not easy to stop when you’re in the Zone. It’s also not easy to stop when…
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Clout Chasing
I don’t think I’ve ever considered myself someone that chases clout. This idea of a person that is driven to make a name for himself or herself, by a show of power, or by some heavy handed way. This idea of influence by means of material ownership, or to flex in what they have, and…
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The Daily Grind
Everyday, just waking up, being alive, and being a human being that breathes. Unlike human beings that don’t of course. Everyday, the work load to clear, or to think through, or just to be responsible about so that the people around me can live life too. I live life too of course, just that I…
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Thirty-Two Year Old Soldier
In Singapore, we have to serve National Service. That’s for about two years, my own time of service was about a year and ten months. It’s part of Singapore’s conscription, because of our really small population. All boys at the age of eighteen are required to serve our National Service to our country, and after…
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What is control?
This is something I personally need to discuss. Control is something that I find really hard to define, and really hard to express. Is it the idea that I can do something? Wouldn’t that be competence? What about the idea of making someone do something that I want them to do? That would sound more…
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The Non Minimalistic Life
There’s always this big whoop over minimalism as a lifestyle. I mean from this blog you’d think that I’d be totally into it too. The whole clean look, simple lines, nothing crazy or bright. Maybe a lot of white, a lot of Muji, whole lot of wood on the floors, the tables, the walls. Then…
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For the sake of it
I used to write on my old blog years ago because I love the sound of the typing I made on the laptop. It sounds stupid then, but wow, what an opposite end of that I have now reached. I’m literally typing now just for the sound of what I’m feeling. I’m doing this for…
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Superficial Motivation
Just Do It, but not really. It’s hard to get started, its hard to make yourself get going. In fact, it’s down right not logical. Why would anyone want to work? It’s hard. It’s easy to lie down and just stay asleep or just stare into nothingness, because even TV dramas put you through such…
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Miscommunication
How do you talk to someone who doesn’t understand where you’re coming from? Is the point that you need to push across that important? Maybe it is, and maybe it isn’t but I think many times, miscommunication is really a matter of pride and ego. Thank the stoics for their high objectivity, and their reminders…
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The End is Nearing.
Like really it is. 2020 has been a crazy year, by anyone’s measure. It doesn’t matter if you’ve been living under a rock, because at this point, I think the world is hoping that everyone does live under a rock. It would help to lower the rampant COVID numbers in the world. We had pegged…
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A Weekly Dose of Whachamacallit
Some days start off real good. Some days get really funky, and you have no idea why. I think its because everyone has days when they just need a bit of that. You know? That… fizz? That… sense of excitement? It’s just unknown and yet every one knows that days can get really long and…
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Dealing with Unplanned Frustrations with People.
Sometimes when you’re just doing your own thing and trying to cruise on in life, and then something comes along and derails your concentration and the state of peace that you’ve worked so hard to achieve. Sometimes we consider that as a small bump, but some other times, it is as if someone had wronged…
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Isaiah 6 and Kanye West
I have recently been learning about hermeneutics. I learnt about understanding the original message and how it translates to us today, in our modern understanding. During my classes, I was given a chance to explore a passage of my own choice, and I chose Isaiah 6 to look at. There is a parallel drawn between…
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The Rush to Wait
Christmas rushing is always a thing for the year end. It’s so exciting running around shops, hunting for the best discounts that match your friend or family the best. I lose myself at the shelf of red tags stating a large cut from the original price, picking and repicking the items that I was looking…
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Creative Dilemmas
24 hours in a day is too little. Yes, wildly known fact. But the hardest part I find is that my passion level in each interest grows or wanes everyday. For example, last week I really wanted to run. And I still kinda do. But today, I awoke and hey, there’s time for a run…
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A daily –
Something. Anything. After the daily challenges, of lettering and of sketching/inking, I’m feeling the laziness hit me. It’s like when I stopped running, I could feel myself still able to do a 12k run easy, but the physical toll after would be some effort recovering. I can draw okay, I just really need to focus.…
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The Delayed Posts
I keep forgetting to post on this blog often. It’s not really meant to be like a serious thought process, but more to let you know I’m a legit person, thinking through legit things, and the artwork that I do create comes from a place of thought and intentional developement. Some heavy influences over…
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Starting again
I had left this title here in 2017, but I honestly can’t remember what I was starting again. But I think this is a very good tittle to still use, one way or another. I’m writing this on the 1st of August 2021. Every day is a chance to start again. Every time I sit…
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The NEXT generation
One question I don’t always ask myself is, who will continue what I’m going to do. How will it continue to the people after me, and be the next thing that people do, or pick up? It’s been a question in my mind after spending time listening to the range of entreprenuer audio books, like…
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Re Reading: Mere Christianity
In the past month, I’ve begun to re-read Mere Christianity with one of my friends. It’s a very interesting book that breaks down a lot of basic ideas that I seemed to have taken for granted. Basic principles like Good and Bad, things that we assume, and it’s something brought out clearly again. We’re only…
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why?
Having had a few blogs before and the usual attempts of trying to record my life in different ways, I find myself asking, why another blog and now on trisected.com of all places? And so these answers are for myself, more so, than for you, the reader. What does trisected mean to me? At random,…