I’m typing on a mechanical keyboard once again.
It took some time, but finally, finally, back to some 3-4mm travel. No more flat laptop keyboards to survive through the day.
I was wondering why this matters so much to me, and I think it comes down to some basic things that I tend to live by.
The Importance of the Experience
I think my life has been filled with so many opportunities and experiences that every one needs to count in some way. Maybe that’s an extremely privileged way of thinking, but I personally think times of suffering and pain are essential as well. So it is not that I am looking for the top of the world type of situations, but I would like my experiences in life to count for something.
That means that I’m completely fine if my life looks different from my friends around me, but I am happy with how it is going. To me, that matters more.
Because of that as well, I find that I get stuck in certain situations longer than I expect. I am struggling with efficiency, to live as much as possible, and the quality of how well I live.
Which is the next point
The Expressions
I have not sketched for ages. Sketching, over the past few years, had given me moments of respite. My brain was allowed to rest, and I could just observe and appreciate the moment. Currently, I’ve not really had time to just draw. It’s been some time since I’ve drawn, but I think the routine of drawing is something I miss as well.
I also realised that I miss expressing myself in certain ways. It’s a funny feeling that I get when I listen to something like The Strokes, or Blink 182. There’s that youthful charm of plain dumb lyrics and jumping around. The expression of youth has not left me, but it is stuck and is jumping inside. I want to jump along, and I want to just make as I see fit. I hope to bring that part of me back once again.
I’ll be working on writing here every day again. I will redo my content calendar for myself, but my hope is really to get back into writing and creating once more. I hope, but I will just have to actually do it!