Is it okay?

(I’m thinking of making this into a zine, or a small text of sorts)

Is it okay if I don’t post on my instagram? Is it okay if you can’t find me on my linked in? is it alright that my last seen was a bit too long ago, or you just can’t really get a hold of what I am online?

Is it okay if you don’t really know who I am, unless I talk to you in person, and we have a real conversation? Is it okay that my personal life remains personal, and that there isn’t a really good profile photo of me, because I just don’t really find the point of taking one?

Is it okay that we don’t talk about the economy, and how things are down and don’t seem to be getting better? Is it okay if we dream, and imagine, and just have fun without worrying about how much it costs? Is it okay just to be chill for a day?

Is it okay to be chill for more than a day? Maybe a year, maybe forever?

Is it okay that I don’t really care about what everyone else thinks, maybe not even you? Is it okay that I don’t care that you don’t care, but I also don’t really care about you caring?

Is it okay that you can have all your problems, but I don’t think anyone can solve them? Is it okay that you don’t tell me your problems, because I don’t tell you mine? Is it okay for my problems to be bigger than yours, and it’s just like that?

Is it okay for the world to move on without us in it? Is it okay for me to die without making an impact on the world? Is it okay that I never got to live in Japan like a digital nomad in the world’s most functional efficient apartment? Is it okay that I kept my life here most of the time?

Is it okay that I love my parents, and my grandparents, and that I have a heathly family dynamic? Is it okay for me to feel shock and horror at some of the bad things in the world?

Is it okay that i don’t want to donate to another cause that has no actual cause, but it’s really just effects? Is it okay for me to just sit back and not be involved because of the questions above?

Is it okay that we continue in this world, in the way it works, because it just works? Or is it okay that I try make a change to it? Is it okay if you try to make a change?

Is it okay if I stop asking if it’s okay, and I just do?

Because I have already and I will.