Tag: rest

Yesterday and today were definitely days of catching up on sleep, among other things. After the ark book fair, I regained some semblance of normal life. Like going for a sketchwalk on Saturday mornings again.

We were at Bidadari Park in the morning yesterday, and I squeezed in one prep sketch before it started to pour really heavily! Then we sketched at a corner of a shelter before the throwdown.

Then I grabbed lunch with the people I was sketching with: Kim, Dawn, and our new friend Cara. It was a fun Pepper lunch.

I went home after that, and took a nap before dinner with Clarice’s parents. We had dinner at a nearby Indian restaurant, and we had a nice early night.

This morning, Clarice and I woke up a little later, and went to Tiong Bahru Bakery nearby to get some pastries and coffee, as we reflected on the week, reading and journalling. We walked around to get some lunch from Donki and came back home to eat.

We did a lot of cleaning for the week ahead, and had a nice dinner of leftovers and beef from Donki. Great end to the week!

With rest like this, the working week feels a little bit more enticing. I do have things I want to do this coming week, and hopefully I get it done well.

I had really bad sleep last night, so I decided to sleep in today. And as I made the decision to sleep in, I struggled with it for some reason. There’s this whole notion of seizing the day, and getting all of your time meaningfully spent. But sometimes, just like today, I had to learn how to just chill about it. It’s okay if I didn’t wake up at 730AM to seize the weekend. I haven’t had at least 3 weekends to rest, they were all busy rushing something, doing something. And at least for once, I could sleep in without worry.

That’s what we did, sleep in, have McDonalds for breakfast, and delivery at that. I even watched online church (as I’ve had to for the past few weeks because of my busyness). Guess what, the world didn’t collapse, and instead of feeling guilty, I’m actually rested, well fed and happy. I even cooked today, and I haven’t cooked in months. It’s just been busy and the type of food I could do easily was all food that was boiled or just made quite easily.

Maybe sometimes, more often than not, I’ve placed way too much priority on getting things done and checking things off. And having a day like today is a good break. Maybe I need this break a lot more than I think.

Today was a long day of work for me, starting with housework as soon as I got up. Didn’t really expect to start the day so fast but it was just that way. After clearing up the SGABF logistics, and packing away my old stock of things, the house felt cleaner, my headspace much better too.

I started clearing out all the administrative work: texting everyone who had written their name on our interaction list. Not everyone replied but it’s cool, it’s not a do or die scenario and I just really wanted to mentally clear up the “to do”. Not that people are a to-do, but texting people is sometimes, especially when you don’t know them too well yet!

Then I continue to plough through the rest of the to-do’s. Recapping all the experiences of the weekend for publishing on the TTR side, and catching up with my inktober drawings. It was nice, that I caught up with about 60% of my work.

The afternoon hit me hard, as most afternoons do, and I took a break to eat lunch and rest a bit. Then continued texting and arranging meetups for the coming month.

Clarice came back home and I was generally not really feeling the need to get out so we ordered really good Korean in, and watched Harry Potter for the rest of the night.

I write this in my bathtub— a little luxury we bought as part of our HDB, and it’s not expensive as one might think. It is also not big and only fits me in a seated crouch position. I like my baths and I like that I ended a lot of good work this season with a good bath before a public holiday tomorrow.

Have yourself a good rest.

I might have reached the point where I’m just too tired to do any work tonight. It’s hard because I really like to work. But mentally I can barely figure out what to have for dinner, I’m not hungry actually just really sleepy.

It’s a long day of walking around the National Gallery of Singapore, and then catching a friend before he flies off. But I guess it’s just a lot of walking and thinking today.

And I really need to learn when to just stop.

One of the hardest things for me to do is to stop working, or to sit still. When I was younger, the way my mum would punish me would be to get me to stand in a corner and not talk to anyone or do anything. Or sit in a chair. Either way, being alone, and not being able to do anything were the worst things in the world for me.

Now with the Internet, and being an adult, I find it even harder to sit still. I keep doing things, and wanting to be stimulated somehow.

Then there comes a day where I fall sick, or I’m just in such a bad funk with nothing being produced. And then I take a break and play games all day. It’s still doing something, but I sometimes find playing games difficult to do, because I don’t produce something out of it.

So today, I took a day of leave to pause a bit. Consolidate some of my thoughts that have been running all over the place, and to put them down together somwhere.

I don’t “achieve” much on days like this, but I do get a lot of mental clarity.

But it took me half the day to get settled enough to write here. I have 2-3 other journals I write in before I get to these blog writings. It gives me a warm up, and then I launch straight into these.

It’s nice to have a break before I have a breakdown. It’s also nice to type away at a keyboard, not worrying if it would give me the best typing rhythm or not. It’s just nice to type.