One of the hardest things for me to do is to stop working, or to sit still. When I was younger, the way my mum would punish me would be to get me to stand in a corner and not talk to anyone or do anything. Or sit in a chair. Either way, being alone, and not being able to do anything were the worst things in the world for me.
Now with the Internet, and being an adult, I find it even harder to sit still. I keep doing things, and wanting to be stimulated somehow.
Then there comes a day where I fall sick, or I’m just in such a bad funk with nothing being produced. And then I take a break and play games all day. It’s still doing something, but I sometimes find playing games difficult to do, because I don’t produce something out of it.
So today, I took a day of leave to pause a bit. Consolidate some of my thoughts that have been running all over the place, and to put them down together somwhere.
I don’t “achieve” much on days like this, but I do get a lot of mental clarity.
But it took me half the day to get settled enough to write here. I have 2-3 other journals I write in before I get to these blog writings. It gives me a warm up, and then I launch straight into these.
It’s nice to have a break before I have a breakdown. It’s also nice to type away at a keyboard, not worrying if it would give me the best typing rhythm or not. It’s just nice to type.
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