Making it count

But what is it?

I just started reading The Alchemist by Paul Coelho, and there’s this whole universal mission and plan that The Boy sets off to do. I feel like the world has told me that much of my life growing up, and honestly what does it really mean at the end of the day? Maybe the book answers it later, but today I write a little post as I question the world around me.

I did a lot today. I drew, I talked, I made sense of my work to a friend, and I think I made some impact on the world around me. But what does it mean to make it count, when all I feel like doing tomorrow is to stay in bed and play games?

I won’t actually, I think I am unable to. My mind and my body physically cannot handle being inactive or unthinking for too long, and I end up writing a post, or just doing something somehow.

But what makes it count? I don’t think its the amount of things I’ve done, and what success it leads to tomorrow or in the future, or for any universal goal I am directed to accomplish.

I think sometimes I find aligning myself as a Christian and the goals of the Christian God in His story represented in the Bible is literally the only thing I can agree with in a moral direction of life. It is the only logical thing I can end up anchoring on again and again.

Making it count only counts for the afterlife, not this current one because someone will just do better than me later on. Making it count in this present life is just not good enough sometimes, and we all know it.

But maybe the book will share some answer. For now, I just keep the biblical answer as my reference point. Again.