Ok, for all my hype about the hobonichi yesterday, as I was setting up my hobonichi, the paper bleeds a lot more than the current one I have in my hands. That kinda sucks, considering how much I was hyping it up. But life goes that way sometimes doesn’t it.
I was doing a workshop today, with some youth from my church, and they were all of 15 years old. I remember thinking I was definitely on top of the world at 15. I remember having a horrible time too, navigating a lot of teenage angst and awkward social situations. Honestly, a lot more regrets than sucesses, but that’s life.
I think I said sorry so much throughout my growing up life, or I tried to and got hung up on. I was really in a bad place, and it didn’t get a lot better actually. Maybe only in my mid twenties was when life started to level itself out a bit more.
Life really runs on trial and error so much of the time, no one really tells you that. Everyone tells you to aim for success, but there’s a crap ton of failure leading up to any form of just passing. Success is really for the 0.0001% of the world. I don’t mean getting money, because there are a lot of people with money, and with moral failure. But to have everything running smooth, that’s a tiny tiny tiny portion of the world.
Anyway, I’m glad I’m not a 15 year old kid anymore, and I’m happy to move past all that.
If anyone here reads this, and I pissed you off or made your life horrible at 15, I apologise. I might have said sorry already, but in case I didn’t, I’m sorry, and its my bad.
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