I tend to be really dramatic when describing things, but today stands really different. This morning, we went off for our baby check up, and it was a detailed scan. We found out our baby is a girl, or at least with 90% accuracy.
This is mad because the past few months, we’ve been assuming its a boy because of the high activity. I’ve told friends, it better be a boy, because if it’s a girl, that’s a crazy active girl, and I’m gonna have so much to worry about.
And it’s a girl. For now.
I think this experience is really making me think about a huge load of human interactions, and the way the world is made. The amount of things I feel the need to prepare my girl for is intense. One of the biggest things is to protect her from Boys Like Me When I Was Young. There are so many ways I wish I was a better human being growing up, but man, now I have a daughter coming into the picture, I am really in such a weird head space.
In any case, we are now workshopping girl names, instead of guy names from before. Also my parents had lunch with us, which gave me a good way to just throw some reflective thoughts out and to get some good feedback. My parents are great for that, and I would like to be that for my children.
After lunch, I made my way down to SIngapore Art Book Fair 2024!! Where I am a vendor this year!! And it is insane.
I sat down for at the table, and looked across, and there was Pann Lim, at his booth. I’ve attended SGABF year after year, being in this really fan-like state looking at Pann’s stuff. Now we’re boothing in the same room. There are so many emotions going through me. I cannot expain, even now.
We set up, rearranged things, and re-arranged more. Everything was at about 90% done, and tomorrow there would be a few more things to finish up. But otherwise, there was really so many things to consider, and I am so thankful for both Dawn, my colleague, and Clarice, my wife, for being there. I was really in a state of “I need to put things up” and “I can’t believe I’m here”. It was crazy. It was really crazy.
Anyway Clarice and I took a very emotional bus ride over to Tanjong Pagar, and sat down to recalibrate things over a Hojicha Parfait at Nana’s Green Tea. There were a number of good memories we’ve had there before, and it was nice to be there again today. We made our way back via train, and worked out before dinner.
For some unbeknownest reason, I decided it was a great day to watch Brandon Sanderson’s lesson on writing as I trimmed my buzz cut. Now I can’t wait to start writing on top of my emotions from the day.
What a big day, and I really need to learn to chill in life. But then again, maybe my role in life is not to chill, but to just keep doing things. I’m actually really okay with that.
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