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Tag: rant

  • Brick Walls

    Today is starting to feel like an opposite of yesterday.

    Yesterday, there was a sense of lethargy to get things going, but today it feels like there are many things waiting to get started, except that I keep running into walls.

    A text updating me about something I had planned, a random person shouting below my block that throws my concentration off, table space that blocks my writing and typing.

    And the biggest one: random YouTube comments about things that I don’t care about. Like my mouse. I have dedicated plans to talk specifically about the mice I have and use daily. I literally will point out what I have been using and why I am specifically not going to get a gaming mouse. It’s just not worth the money and time.

    Same reason I will never get a PC. I would rather install bootcamp or the current equivalent on my Mac than to buy a PC and then to have a PC build. Either that, or I could also get a console or something, I don’t know.

    But NO NEW MOUSE, and NO PC. It’s just not worth the time and space in my life.

    kthxbye, thanks for coming to my ted talk. or website, whichever.

  • Daily Blogging is tough

    I have to keep thinking about what to say, and its just like on and on and on. LOL. I have a lot of things to talk about, but not everything is “blog worthy” I guess.

    And to make a post, I shall complain about blog-worthiness. It feels like there needs to be a point made, or something that I’ve reflected on one way or another. But honestly, it’s not really true. I could write about anything I want, because it’s a daily blog after all.

    So I shall just update that I’ve won two old boards on Yahoo Auctions Japan right now, and I’m just waiting for them to ship, and I’ll sort out all the shipping fees later. But wow, I am honestly quite excited for this journey down retro boards and all that.

    Wish me luck, and pray for my wallet. I have set caps, and thankfully I’m keeping to them. But just in case… hahaha…

  • If not for me, then who?

    There’s this phrase thrown around whenever I go back for reservist, or I find myself in a situation where obligations are placed: “If it’s not me, then who?”

    The idea is that if the person doesn’t do that job, or take up that role or appointment, then who will do it? And it will end up with a bad situation, and everyone will suffer because of that loss of that one person.

    But another way to think about it is: if it’s not for me, that I’m doing this task for, then who am I doing this task for?

    I found myself listening to a conversation where the people in it kept complaining about their different situations that they were dealing with. They were just going on and on about why they were in a bad place, and why they should not be there. But if it’s not for themselves that they were doing this for, then who were they doing this for?

    In a situation where one needs to think of the big picture, responsibility goes really high. Above personal agenda. When when accepts the idea of a divine responsibility, then there’s a definite sense of purpose and fulfillment. But if someone doesn’t even understand their own place in the world, then what’s the point of trying to fight against an obligation or responsibility? It’s not like they’d have anything better to do.

    And to me, that is the reason why the human race will never go beyond a certain point. We’re just outrightly too selfish. God save our souls.