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  • Time vs Money

    I awoke earlier than expected today, which led me to think, why not? And I decided to go for a morning run at 630, instead of rushing it at 730. This gave me a whole hour ahead, and I’ve already cleared through some of my morning routine before my regular waking hours. It might mean that tomorrow I would try to make these same timings again, or maybe I would sleep in because tonight would end a bit later than usual.

    Yet, Time is what I’m really chasing after.

    I’ve been watching many finance videos recently because of a sudden interest in NFT gaming, and the whole crypto space. The more finance videos I watched, the more entranced I became with the idea of money being key. But today, on my run, that was something I really just struggled to come to terms with. What do I want money for? What’s the point of it?

    I currently live in a smallish apartment, under a government based rental scheme, as I wait for my pre-booked apartment to be built. In Singapore we call these BTOs – Built To Order. But because I have my current apartment, I’ve been able to purchase many things for the household. We have a single seater sofa, we have our bed, we have shelving (that I purchased in my twenties), clothes that will last me a good 3-5 years without me buying new ones, and a few other household things that I would survive very well with.

    I honestly have to say that I am living a very rich life right now. My interests are easily pursued, and the depth of knowledge and experience that I would like to pursue is within my fingertips. I don’t need anything that would require me to have a lot of money for it. I currently don’t see the need for the “financial stability” that many in finance have been talking about.

    I do see the flip side, that if my interests, in collect keyboards, vinyl, and diving deep into things like art; if money becomes one of these interests, I can see myself diving very deep into it as well, and aiming to “collect as much as possible”. But why? Money as a point of collection or accumulation sounds ridiculous in the skill and scope of what I have been able to achieve. Currently at least.

    And because of that, I will still play around with crypto, and properly throw some money into long term investments, maybe with a regular yield (regular to be defined). But I will not invest the same amount of time and effort that I had put into keyboards, or my other creative hobbies just for gaining wealth. I think that would be an unwise use of my time.

    Instead, I will chase my daily times of exercise, of creativity. I think even the gaming NFTs (Gods Unchained and Axie Inifinity) have more holistic gains because I’m able to learn tactics, and enjoy myself. I will chase the things that would be harder to chase after when I hit my older age. Like learning new things, experiences and stretching my body to its healthier limits when I still can.

    As I note myself thinking through these things, I am reminded that I am after all saying all these things from a place of much career safety. I would like to think that I am in a niche, and will be needed. But I know the truth of it being that no one is really needed that same way.

    I also understand that I am very influenced by my own sense of idealism. I do not mean to put any one down. I know that the hobby of collecting keyboards would sound ridiculous to someone who is into finance and investment. And my ideals are really not normal.

    I am also moved by my current moment, which does not need me striving for money. My views on all these might change one day, and probably will. But for today, I will live with my ideals.

    Tomorrow might be entirely different.

  • How Time Flies

    It doesn’t really fly, but it moves so quickly and it’s as if I’m sitting in a time machine every day. It’s moving at the pace of one second a second, but every moment just moving on and on as we drift through space on this planet.

    Nostalgia and regret; the two biggest enemies on this fight against time. Future and Patience are other enemies too, but I think the ones that cause me a lot of pain are the ones of things that I could have done better.

    It’s because of how I think about the past that affects the way I think about the future. I know that for sure, and maybe I’ve even mentioned that here a few times. But at the end of it, where am I really?

    What is the present, if not a time for immediate action? And why do I think and reflect, only to lose more time later?

    So to make sense of all these thoughts, I think this daily blogging here is good for me, because my reflections are immediately shared, and then I can re-do my thoughts later. Maybe it would work for the current time, and maybe, just maybe time would stand still for a moment.

    But it won’t, and you would have spent time just to read this.

    So spend time wisely, because it flies. Really really quickly it flies. Can’t ever catch it back, and can’t ever earn it back.

  • The Daily Grind

    Everyday, just waking up, being alive, and being a human being that breathes.

    Unlike human beings that don’t of course.

    Everyday, the work load to clear, or to think through, or just to be responsible about so that the people around me can live life too.

    I live life too of course, just that I think I can balance it pretty well.

    Everyday, needing some coffee, some caffeine, some sugars, some carbs.

    Balanced meals are for balanced people, that we are of course.

    Everyday, steps ahead, one at a time, until finally we are home.

    To restart everything once more for the next. And one day, it’ll all be done. No more new days, just a perpetual one. No more time, because time exists only for the human being who does. No more frustrations, no more responsibilities, no more hunger, no more pain, no more grinding, no more droning on and on about egos and people and everything else that humanity carries in its baggage of existence.

    Just being, and in my case, with God.

    The daily grind, to a halt, with God.