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  • Middle of July

    I’ve been thinking where some of these posts should go. I’ve been writing, just not publishing anything much. Some part of me is afraid of how I would be seen and understood. Another part just wants to say something because I can. I might just keep writing things and I’ll see where I end up in the whole landscape of the interwebs after everything is over.

    I had chanced upon this video talking about how Franz Kafka wrote so much, and no one ever saw the work he had done when he was alive. The people around him weren’t impressed with what he had done, and told him to just stick to what he was already doing then – insurance. So he did, and he burnt his work. But after his death, a friend had picked up his work, and published it. That’s really crazy, because Kafka’s thoughts are so bizzare and strange, and the world would have not understood absurdity in the way he had placed it. I can’t imagine not having read Kafka as a younger person.

    So because of that, I felt the need to keep on writing. Maybe not for anyone else but myself. And that’s okay. Maybe someone reads it, maybe no one reads it. It’s still okay. If I’m dead and famous, it won’t get to my head, because I’ll be dead already. And if I’m not famous, it wouldn’t bring me down, because I’ll be dead already too.

    Parenting life has made me think harder and harder about what I want to emphasize my time and efforts on. Funny enough, it’s actually getting easier to sleep because baby sleeps better now. But instead, I’m sleeping less because I’m staying up thinking about things, watching shows or playing games. It doesn’t make sense, how the modern day really just moves you in some strange unknown way. I wonder if I could ever put my finger on it. I would love to, because I’m so annoyed that I have so much trouble putting my phone down to stop watching reels.

    But life goes on, and I can’t write as much as I’d like to, it’s just one step at a time. But I want to, and I should, so I should really start again.

    Starting with this post at least.

  • What’s going on to the site?

    I figured now’s a good time as any to update the site, bit by bit. There are times when I am quite ashamed to direct someone to trisected.com, but there are other times when it’s better than nothing.

    I’m trying to develop content specifically for newsletters, if that’s your thing then:

    newsletter

    But otherwise, I’ll still post here still, but maybe a little bit more specific? I’m not sure. I guess we’ll work that out over time. But the newsletter definitely a lot more finessed points. Maybe some of the blog stuff would carry there too. Who knows? Not me.

    I don’t know who I am for sure. I think there are many times where people assume I know what I’m doing. I just know what I want to do at the moment, or I’ve planned for the moment awhile back and I know that process then was the best. It doesn’t mean that I’m absolutely certain, but I know for sure that part of me had planned with absolute certainty. Like a time travel moment for myself.

    In any case, my website was a part of that a long time ago. I don’t know if it’s still the case now, but I know that I want to just sort out the website stuff now, when I’m a little more certain.

    I am also assuming that by firming up my site, I am firming up a point of view of me that I want people to know. This isn’t just a LinkedIn thing, this is a bit more definitive. It’s a little more personal and professional at the same time.

    But its also me, so it’s a blog post explaining all this.

    Anyway, no fear, it’s just me still, but working out where and how my information is shared and understood.

  • Life updates: Third week of 2024

    Life updates: Third week of 2024

    It’s such a mind boggling thing sometimes, when life turns out in a direction you’ve never expected. Somewhere last year, I told Clarice that I was so sure I have something wrong with my thyroids, and that’s why I have a lump under my chin. Clarice laughed, and I searched and it seems like it was just being fat. But I was still not persuaded.

    But now, after 3 weeks of running 4 times a week again, as I did when I was much younger, I feel the lump going away slowly. So okay, maybe it was just fat.

    It’s also really funny that when I wrote about Q, from the previous post, within a week, they messaged me. I don’t think Q bothers about me enough to search out my site and read my thoughts, but in any case, I received a text to try and reconcile. I was honestly surprised, so I did take that as a step to do something good, and positive.

    I have also been drawing again, and inside, I swear, I think my creativity is going somewhere strange. It’s not that it doesn’t exist anymore, it’s just that I produce work in a way that I don’t totally comprehend right now. And if the work comes out most visually through sketches and sketch walks, I have to be ready and okay for it. I think I am, but I’m honestly a little over it. But I do feel a simple good push by doing a sketchwalk. At least I have some work, instead of putting myself down just to do work that I think would break boundaries or rethink society. I can be happy with just having some work.

    So I’m really back to drawing, one page, one location at a time. I do admit, seeing a completed sketchbook is a nice feeling. Even if the pictures are bad, it’s still good. In some sense.

    I had plans, and I am having plans of creating a page just of all my sketchbooks too. I will aim to have this up by March. It’s just the process of taking photos that’s tough: laying all the sketchbooks as flat as possible, with the most correct color accuracy. It’s a real process.

    I have also gotten through 4 books in the year already, and it’s not even past the third week. This means that I’m pretty ahead of my reading schedule, and I’m still chasing it down. I’m reading this book called “People of the Book”, and it’s not exactly my cup of tea. But it hit a good portion today, so I managed to crawl through the narrative a bit better. Exposure is the hardest part of trying to clear books to read, because it’s really easy to just keep reading the same type of mystery-murder-spy type of books.

    I’m a little scared of attempting Murakami again, as I had planned to, but maybe I should. Because that would give me another framework to think about words once more. The murder mystery types don’t really bank heavy on phrasing, but really a lot more on the smart tricks and the incredulous action.

    I am also severely allergic to cats and dogs right now. I think the lack of a cat or dog in my past year has lowered my threshold to allergies so much. I am just in constant tears and sneezing fits. I sneezed so much this week that my eye lids were sore from having to squeeze and tear. I had about two nights with animals this week, and it was just horrendous for my nasal passage. But it felt really good though, to have pets. Now it will just be limited to enjoying pets in the homes of family and friends.

    That’s about all the updates I have. I’ll be flying around a lot this year, and hopefully I learn how to manage my time a lot better. Prayerfully.

    Peace.

  • First Update for the Year 2023

    It’s been some time since I’ve posted anything, and this might be my first post for the year, across all platforms. Here’s a rough of what’s been up so far:

    Moving

    Currently, my apartment is coming to fruition! It’s been a five year wait since putting a down payment, and finally now, our renovations are coming to an end as well. This means all my spare time is spent with packing, and picking out finishing pieces.

    It also means that my daily routines are in a crazy mess most of the time. My daily writing and thinking has been thrown out of the window, but at least I still do have some journal moments every now and then. But my writing and drawing is really thrown off its momentum.

    Work plans

    I’m also in the middle of running some internship programmes at my workplace. It’s part of a range of things, but I’m really looking forward to new work happening in the year ahead. It’s exciting and honestly, I feel a bit giddy just thinking about it.

    My work is always about the Christian response to many things. Sometimes I write and I think the worst of the world, and I just feel the dread and desperation of the times. Other times, I seize the hope and the glimpse of the future, where the world is indeed rosy and full. My new work really is to aim to give the good hope for the new generations ahead, for the younger ones who might not have had time and access to different groups of people to connect.

    I hope that maybe one day I would be able to make sense more of it, and show a bit more, but until it really works out, I’ll share more of it then!

    I hope to post a bit more regularly in the weeks ahead, but I think I’ll just aim for one post a week for this month at least.

    Have a great new year everyone!

  • July Begins

    It’s the first of July! And I’m already behind on some of the things that I really want to do. But let’s not continue on the wrong foot, and I’m going to get this blog going once more as I get myself ready for the things ahead.

    First things first,

    I signed myself up for NaNoWriMo – National Novel Writing Month. Something like a push for myself to really get into writing properly. It’s not going really well today actually, I’ve only hit 597 out of my 50,000 word count that I’m hoping to hit. And I had hope to write daily. This really just makes me feel a ton of pressure, but honestly I know that I have this story in rough. I just need a good push to get it started, and this NaNoWriMo is hopefully it. If you’re on it, please look for me there: trisected everywhere

    Secondly,

    I’m really trying to get back into YouTube proper, and start that whole video discussion and talking about life kinda thing. I’m definitely branching off where this blog has been, and I share all sorts of ideas and stuff. But I’ll hopefully share as honestly there. It’s really a pain to do editing, that’s one. The other is really how weird it is to talk to the camera. It really feels So Cringe. I can’t believe I even sent a video up. It’ll be out on the 3rd.

    Thirdly,

    I’m in the middle of changing jobs, but at the same time, I’m really thinking about passive incomes OR just making some side money as a whole. Not really the same as moonlighting, but more like selling the things I currently have on second hand trading websites. Things like that. I’ve got a lot of crap and hopefully that can get me some money back.

    Fourth, and Finally,

    I’ve got a bunch of paintings that I do owe a bunch of people. I haven’t drawn for a really long time, and I’m feeling rusty. But hopefully, my creativity explodes immensely. It’s a lot of things pent up inside.

    That’s about it!! Thanks for reading, always appreciate the one or two of you coming to see this. See you around!

  • Updates Incoming!

    It’s been some time since writing something here. I have many things on my mind, but I haven’t really been able to put it together just yet. Also, I’m in the middle of my last few weeks of my current job, so I’m really just thinking through a range of things. Thankfully, I don’t find my identity tied to my occupations that much, but its still separating that I’m learning how to deal with better, much like my last post.

    But just to keep things exciting a bit, here’s a piece of music from my own history:

    Remembering my own youth, sitting on my grand pa’s bed, listening to this on his stereo.

  • End May Update

    I’m the life of the party until I sober up

    Every month gets past faster and faster. I realised that I haven’t posted a video on my YouTube for the past 2 months, one of my longest breaks yet. And I think I’ve got a good number of uncollected things at different locations around Singapore, because of my timings and how I’ve just been doing different things.

    One key thing that I’m realizing is how much I don’t enjoy crowds at all, and having to see many crowds around town and the areas that I go to, it’s just a lot to deal with. Because of that, I enjoy bouldering at weird hours, where there are little people around. It feels right and it feels personal. I hate it when there’s a ton of people, and I have to deal with everyone else.

    Regarding videos…

    I haven’t been able to work on keyboard things for some time because of the cats as one part, and the other is that I’m trying to work out what it would be like to move between my MacBook and my iMac. So right now, I’m shifting between two devices a lot, and I’m not having that time to sit down and edit on just one. I wish I could, but it takes some time, some practice just to work that all out.

    I’ve gotten some little footage, but I haven’t been building much either. The weirdest part is that now my keycaps are starting to come in, the GMK group buys that I had purchased are starting to be fulfilled. But I haven’t had the time to place them into the boards, and I haven’t had time to desolder or to reassemble.

    It’s tough having a job, and trying to do this video filming things on the side. I’ve also gotten a bunch of footage for myself to work through on personal projects, but I’m just thinking how I want to keep it as a memory for myself, more than for YouTube or a public platform. A personal video for memory sake more than anything else.

    Anyway, I’ll try to update more in the month coming, and then hopefully, I’ll get back onto schedule again.

  • Update Mid May

    It feels like I’m preparing to fulfill a group buy (feels like this https://rama.works/updates). These updates are a bunch of Keyboard ones, and also some life ones here and there.

    Some major updates:

    1. I’ve been using my GMK Noire for the past few weeks, and it’s been a dream. I understand the hype of the GMK keycap sets. It feels really nice, and there’s something about the sound of things. It’s just that super sweet mix of everything good in one, and it’s great.
    2. I’ve learnt that I can afford two slots of climbing in a week, and this is a mix of affording time, and money. That also means that keyboard things have been taking a bit, but I’ve been buying for the past two years, so even then, the items are still just arriving. But nonetheless, it’s another money suck that draws every time I go out.
    3. I’ve been looking at coding literally just in the last week. I’ve never shied away from doing a bit of coding here and there: obviously because I’m on my own website that I’m hosting under my own server. I’ve done my fair share of HTML back in the day, and I thought it would be fun to understand VIM and GIT and things like that. Trouble is: currently, it’s not that fun just yet.
    4. I’m currently in the middle of many busy periods, thus the lack of uploads, and just not being very present online. That’s because I have to be so present in real life right now, and that’s really kinda tough. I’ve got keyboards still not built since the end of last year, as a sign of how tight life has been. Yes, I mean I have some time to climb and all that, but that’s not really the same as setting out a good 4-6 hours to do a keyboard up the way I want it to be. I can squeeze out some easy keycap switches, but I usually need to change switches, clean out the board from excess lube or dust, then prime another set of switches or keycaps for the next haul. It takes time. And then editing, if I’m doing a video on top of that. It really takes passion, from all those YouTube keyboarders. The amount of time they take is insane. Props to all of them for doing that.
    5. I might be moving soon, and also I will be leaving my current company, as my contract ends. I have another application ready, but I’ll be out for a month before settling in properly. Wish me luck.

    That’s about it, I just really need some headspace, but honestly I’ve no idea what to talk about where anymore. I think my brain just got too spread out over everything.

  • Update April May

    Hi Blog, it’s been some time. A good full month to be precise.

    Jumping straight into it, I’ve been really into rock climbing since I’ve last updated. It was really quite expected, especially after the IPPT and the injury thereafter. I got so into it, that I’ve went back at least three times or four times since, and I’ve gotten a pair of shoes also.

    The shoes will probably get more of a feature soon, as I dive yet again into even more hobbies. Climbing is fun, and I enjoy it, especially from the exercise of it. The shoes are so fancy and fun, those really suck me into the sport. It’s like running shoes too, that aspect of function and form. I really enjoy them.

    These are the La Sportiva Cobra 4:99

    I’ve been trying to produce a YouTube video about the IPPT thing, based loosely off my post here. It’s been frustrating mostly because I’ve not properly planned the thing, and I keep flopping about trying to get it done. It’s not fun when I’m running around aimlessly. I just need to sit down and really plan it through, but every time I sit down there’s something else I need to attend to, and my time is just taken from me. Not a good feeling at all.

    We’ve also started to foster two kittens at home, for a month. My sister’s friend works in a cat shelter of sorts, or has connections to, and asked if we could help. Clarice said yes almost immediately, and they arrived in two days. As I am typing to you now, they’re sitting outside my study room door, playing around or waiting for me to come out.

    It’s been a learning experience of what it means to take care of another living creature, and two kittens are really nuts to take care of. They run all over the place and get into so much dust. Really a lot of dust, which I’m allergic to.

    In any case, I hope to start daily blogging again. I don’t like the excuses that I don’t have enough time, and I really want to change things up now. I want to get things going.

    I have to!