I’ve been writing these in the afternoon or evenings, and it feels a bit weird. I do prefer writing these blog posts in the mornings, it really feels good to have some thoughts like these out nicely in the morning. It also feels better to know that I’ve cleared some daily to-do’s that I personally want to cover. It’s really not fun when the whole day is just things for other people.
Today’s been a pretty good day so far, I had skate time in the morning, and a great catch up brunch. Then I came back and basically cooked until two, finished up some work, and then finished watching Hell’s Kitchen Season 20. I love days like this, where I can get things done, and still have time to chill a bit.
Adjusting time for myself, and time to do things for other people is one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to balance. I think that one of the key things that I struggle with the most is how much time I should allow for myself. I’m not good with gauging that, or at least thinking that I should give myself the excuse to not be on 100% all the time. It’s not the best way to think, but I don’t know why we would say we are 100% committed to something, if we were not going to spend our 100% of time on something. It’s taking the phrase literally, but what other way could I place it? If I agree with something, I really mean that I do.
But now, growing up more and more, I find out that I need to really set some time to breath. I had no idea how important that is, and I realized that I used to have really bad crash periods. I thought I had understood myself well enough, and catered enough time, but in the past year, I really see that I need more breaks than these. It’s not right, and it’s not beneficial in the long run for my mental health and my long term well being. It’s just not being nice to the future me.
In any case, I’ve had 4 coffees already today, but I honestly feel like I could use another 2, more because I really like the taste of coffee right now. But we’ll see how this evening goes, I still have a dinner to host!