I’ll do a few more posts on how sad it is to be different from people, then later I’ll see what else I can make sense of in happier ways.
Feeling like you’re always on the outside
I would think that everyone actually deals with this, but sometimes being the person that speaks up and makes actions to prove that one is unique, that really makes you aware of how individual one really might be. There have been a number of occasions in a group discussion where I can see eyes darting around for assurance from each other, but I’m happy to just speak my mind and be the one that is not with everyone else. It excludes me, but truthfully, everyone is also struggling with this sense of exclusion.
Not being heard
So this one is the one that really gets to me the most. There are times when I am disregarded because of how out of the norm I think. My expressions, though everyone might be thinking similar possibilities, are usually just considered as thoughts that don’t make sense, or that don’t match with the majority.
This means I honestly suffer a ton when doing table top role playing games. The game masters would either appreciate my thoughts, but the group is usually struggling in the wildest ways on how to make sense of what I’ve just thrown us into.
I think these are two short ones for today, I’ll write more about other things tomorrow, it does feel like I’m beating a dead horse a bit. Or maybe I’m just not in the mindset to write more today. We’ll see how things go.