I really tend to over prepare on too many things. I’ve usually thought through what I want to do, and presupposed that the amount of time I have. This has led to me first owning too many things, and secondly, I usually am overladen.
This happens even in video games. I play the classic Diablo 3 every now and then, and when I do, my character is carrying a whole lot of low level loot that I couldn’t make sense to discard. “I could use this for another character build” “Maybe I could sell it at the next market” “Perhaps I should put gems into it and it could sell for even more”. The possibilities are endless but my inventory is not.
Clarice, on the other hand, barely picks things up unnecessarily. The way she plays This War of Mine is so intentional on surviving, and now she’s playing to try earn and gain more things. Maybe if she plays Diablo, her character probably wouldn’t even store an inventory of things. In real life, she packs really light, but I’m the one with 2 weeks of clothing for a one week trip.
Currently, in camp, I’m looking at all the food I brought in, with the thought that I would be able to eat it. I’m looking at the drawing tools I have, and how I thought I would be able to draw something more often. It’s just not very sane, how I approached these things. The possibilities were limited, but at the same time, my daily schedule proved to squeeze over what I was able to do in the first place.
I’ve gotten time in to read, or to watch a show or two, or to just relax and catch up on sleep. But otherwise, I’m falling far from what I had expected to be able to do during this week. I mean okay, I still have another 5 more days, but I am expecting a bit more to do during that time.
Hopefully I’ll be able to get some good shows under my belt. I actually finally watched The Joker, and man, it’s a really good show. I can now watch The Batman with some high hopes. I’ve prepared to finish watching at least 2 K-Dramas, but I’m barely past the second episode of the first one. A bit ashamed that I couldn’t finish it, but I’ll do my part right now and head back on to the show.