It’s the last night that I’m staying in this camp for. Currently all my things are mostly packed, and it feels like the last night at an AirBnB. Everything’s mostly ready to go, just one more night of making sure the things are in place, and then getting ready to go. A lot of adrenaline, a lot of tapping of feet and waiting.
I think it happens everywhere, whenever I’m prepping for things. Then I have this whole bulk of time that I’m super free for. A lot of extra waiting time at the end, but I prefer that, than the stress that I don’t have everything ready for myself.
I think this also links to how I keep buying keyboards as soon as I can. A lot of group buys come out and I purchase the things As Soon As the site goes live. That edge of anticipation.
The feeling also comes from being really afraid of the things that I’ll be stepping back into in work. I’ve already gotten enough texts and updates, and I’ll have to spend a day or two to sit there and look through all the meeting minutes, and all the planning that is supposed to be cleared.
That’s not something I’m looking forward to at all. But all the same, nervous for it. And the week will continue to build up until the events are over one by one.
Like going to school for the first day of the year.
Just really not sure of what to expect, and just hoping that nothing goes wrong. It won’t really I guess, but the fear still exists.
I really just can’t wait to get home.