So I started do some adjusting around the site as a whole, kinda to get myself a bit more visibility in the right areas, or so I hope. The blog will still be a blog, and I’ve got a clear link for it now.
But instead, all other areas are a bit more defined.
Basically I just arranged my front page in a certain way so that it wouldn’t assail you with my thoughts and emotions from the get go. I actually did all this because of something that I’ve been thinking hard about: how much hard work am I putting in?
I honestly feel like I’ve been trying to cruise at what I’m pretty good at. Like writing, or just coming up with ideas. I can do that all day, almost without any effort. That also means that I can afford to “not feel like it” most of the day. Because I could crash something out really fast.
But having to work at web design (which I can do but I suck at), or design as a whole (which I enjoy, but I can’t do well), these things take a bit more out of me. I also don’t mind making friends with strangers, but having to sell them something I don’t completely understand also feels strange to me. Which is why I rework my art programs looking for perfection, but honestly it’s just a bit too much to keep on at it without actually starting something going.
So I’m working on the site, in hope that I direct myself to something more feasible. It also makes me work harder, which I haven’t done in a long time.
Maybe actually for years…
But yeah, it feels good, and you’re getting to see parts of the result of it, like on the website.
It feels great!