I don’t think it’s super easy to describe what happens when you step into a role of leadership. Or how it is when you have to gather a group of people and convince them that you’re doing it right, and they should be listening to you.
Let me attempt to describe it:
It is impossible. Most of the time.
I’m usually found in a place of leadership. Not because I want to, but because I am talking too much, and people either like what I am saying, or they don’t like it, and they want me to be in front so that others can also disagree with me publicly. The trouble to this is that I am usually unafraid of speaking in front, and more often, I am convinced that my thoughts would win more people over from my presented thoughts and opinions.
I don’t think this always equates to being a leader, but it is not hard thereafter to tell everyone that they ought to follow what I’m saying, because I’m there talking about it.
In that sense, I think I can lead.
But in other forms of the word: I often think of leadership as the man in front of the army, commanding a thousand men behind him to rush the enemies in front. I think of the presidents, and ministers, saying things that they might not have a clear idea about, but still presenting it in hope to rally the people.
That sense of leadership is somewhat hard for me to grasp, because I don’t necessarily agree with an organised group to the extent of a government. It’s not that I don’t agree with the government, its more like I question the need and the purpose of it. But that being said, I can’t imagine being that kind of leader. Perhaps because the need and purpose question is not something I have worked out.
So I am trying my best, in the places where I am at, to lead by example.