I’ve got quite a few teams that I work with, and a lot of the time I can’t decide if the team is working together with me or not. Sometimes, I feel very conflicted, that by being myself, I end up messing with how things work. Other times, I feel like I’m the main one pulling it together.
Whenever I do personality tests, or maybe team work and working dynamic quizzes, I end up with this strong, independent personality, but much of the time, I actually just like making fun of people and things. There’s so much nonsense in how we choose to approach certain ideas, and I feel like it’s my responsibility to say what I think for the sanity of the other humans around us. Like do we even hear ourselves and what we’re saying sometimes.
In any case, I find that I do need quite a bit of discussion whenever I’m in a team, because I am listening and processing with all my tangents in mind. I am constantly trying to connect the dots too other dots. I’m not always thinking of solving the problem at hand, but I’m trying to solve as many problems at one go, and that solves that problem of work and life. Perhaps one day, I would be able to pull that thought together. Maybe that would be when I make the whole world friends with each other.
We all know that won’t happen, the same way we know that the projects we aim to take over the world won’t really happen either. But at least we can try.