There’s this sense of anxiety when I think about making something new.
Being able do a sequel, a repeat, a part two, it all seems a lot more manageable, but at the same time I can imagine being extremely bored.
But starting afresh makes me feel sick inside. The same way that I have performance anxiety; the same way that I get stage fright. It makes me feel so uncomfortable. But I know the work needs to get out of me somehow.
Writing helps me think about it, and I thought about writing it in my journal, but I wanted to just put it out here: it is not easy to produce new work. Mentally, it really takes a toll on me.