Writing devices

I’ve been having a conversation with a good friend about writing devices. I think I talked about this awhile back, but the conversations are still going on.

It’s been making me wonder, what is it about writing that I’m avoiding, that I think will be solved by buying a new device? Is it the fear of actually starting to write? Or maybe it’s the lack of inspiration, or a lack of a subject and topic.

I think it might be the fear of actually producing something. I know my friend has no issue with that, she has a full site and publishing thing going on now. But for me, I think I’m afraid of what I would need to do if I start writing. I’m afraid of doing more work, and I’m afraid of the successes of doing well in writing. It’s not what I’m known for, and I guess it takes a lot of effort to start meeting the “writing crowd”. I’ve already committed much time and effort into the art groups and I don’t know the writing guys in Singapore.

But that’s not why you write, right?

And that might be my slow struggle. I don’t know how to “be successful in writing”. I don’t know what that looks like, or how it feels. There are too many unknowns.

If I can sort out how I am thinking and feeling about these things, perhaps I would be able to get myself going better in my writing. Not really going better, but to just get more confident, and to actually start writing properly. In a way that I would aim to be published somehow.

One post at a time I guess.