I’ve been working on a range of things, but one thing I’ve been really thinking hard about is my CV. There’s the official kinda stuff that I would put in for my regular job applications. But at the same time, I realised that I’ve done a lot more than what my job would ever entail me to do. More than that, it’s because of my job, that I would do things like enter into the art book fair, or to explore arts in detail.
I also think that the type of interactions I get are so unique, and if I were to really put down all the skillsets I’ve actually picked up over the ten over years of work, there’s a lot more than I can imagine.
At the same time, I can’t believe how limited I’ve been thinking about myself. I’ve been feeling the need to do more, and to learn and push harder. But what’s the hurry, especially when I’ve been already doing it for so long? I’ve already understood a lot more than others at my age, and it’s because of the sheer quantity of interactions I’ve forced myself to go through. I hope it didn’t come off as a proud statement, but as an objective comparison of the amount of people I’ve had to interact with one on one, as part of the job, that number alone would make an introvert feel extremely overwhelmed. (I just learnt this today because of my introvert intern. He very kindly explained how it was way too much for the amount of people I introduced to him on a normal day – 5 completely new strangers to him)(Other days he might get another 4-5, and after four weeks of working with me, he’s really getting stressed about his social battery)(and he’s just come from school where he’s had the physical interactions for the past three years)
Anyway, I think I’ve been overthinking, about how much more I need to do. I would like to spend a bit more time to reflect, and to sharpen what I do by a lot. So that it can really be a razor thin skill set that I do with finesse.
That skill being interacting and developing creative youth, or youth in general. It’s really a weird niche skill that I have a huge handle on. I can’t explain it, but hopefully after the next few years, I will.
Leave a Reply