I had a chat with ChatGPT today, about two things I really thought I wanted, and I know that I have enough of.
The first was an eInk reader, the xteink x4. It’s got buttons only, and for some reason, that’s really interesting to me. The reader I currently have has a touch screen and runs Android. Maybe it’s the overfunctionality that I’m sick of. But in any case, I don’t really need another one especially if I’m not using the current one I have more often.
The second was a tote bag, the Bellroy totes. There’s just something about some over designed bag, with compartments, padding, and waterproofing. But in all honesty, I have too many tote bags. I know that already, and I know that for sure. I don’t need another one, and I don’t use the many that I already have. At most, I could get a replacement for one of them that I’ve used to death in many ways, but otherwise, I’m actually in no need for a new tote bag.
But it’s so hard to not think of replacing the things that I already have. I keep imagining, and wishing that I had others. But I’m not in lack, and I’m not in need. They’re completely redundant purchases, as ChatGPT rightly pointed out. Buying them won’t add any significant value to my life, other than aesthetic preferences.
To me, being an adult is figuring out that I can’t spend like this, because I have things I really want to save up for. This feeling is strange, foreign, and I am quite disturbed by myself. And yet, I know it is deeply necessary to focus. I have to do my best to focus… for my baby at least.
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