There are too many times when I take out a huge bag of stuff, thinking that I would use all of it. I’ve got an iPad, one keyboard, two diaries, a denim jacket, two types of earphones, my pencil cases, a sketchbook. You’d think I’ll be out for the day, but I’ve just got two hours on my own.
The worst part of this was my frustration at a place to sit down and write at. I really wanted my peace and quiet, but literally everyone is filled with people who don’t understand personal space. Either that or they don’t know how to queue in line at food queues.
But really, should I allow someone who doesn’t understand how to queue to upset me? There’s really no need to waste emotion or energy on someone who cannot read the the floor instructions, or to pay attention to instructions. Literally arrows and lines on the floor, but unable to see or understand it. I mean, should I really waste my physical breath on people like that.
That being said, I don’t read the word “Pull” on doors often enough.
Musical Interlude: 4 – Aphex Twin
I enjoy the Stoic approach, of not wasting time and breath on people who don’t deserve it. But at the same time, when you’re in the middle of it, it’s really hard to pull back, and to remember not to allow yours emotions to fly. I do prefer the Christian point of view, where you understand your emotion, and try to work around it. Like understand that there’s nothing to really worry about, or to be pressured about.
It’s really easy to say these things by the way, but it’s really hard to live that way. I enjoy the idealism behind Christianity, that’s definitely why I’ve stuck with it for so long. But sometimes, it’s really tragic when other Christians don’t feel the same way. Then they take very practical shortcuts to take away the idealism of Christianity. That really sucks, and that annoys me a ton.
I just wished that we all lived according to what we say we would live by. I really don’t like the half way truths of things. It does not work out for anyone, and especially not for me.