I’ve posted a new video on YouTube today, and it really took some part of me to make that happen. I actually showed my face, gasp, and unlike other times, like on stream, I actually had to edit myself. It was honestly an uncomfortable experience, and I spent the last few days questioning myself about it. Like should I still do more of these kind of videos and things like that.
And I’m diving deep into so many questions about myself: what do I stand for as a person? Am I okay with how I’m presenting myself, and how I’m presenting my work on YouTube? Are these things that I can be proud of?
And all these questions aside; a part of me says to myself: at least this version of me is producing something. Not like the other versions of myself questioning everything that’s being done, but not actually producing. Even if its a bad video, at least it’s still a video. The worst YouTubers don’t exist on YouTube, and I have to start somewhere.
So in all this, my next video that I’m going to film will hopefully be my channel intro, and what I hope to do as a whole. Then I really have to make sense of my workflows and what I really want to become as a person on the Internet.
Anyway, to the next few exciting chapters of my life!