I’ve just completed my last day of work officially. I was working in a church, and it has been a good two years of work, to the day exactly. I started on the 6th of July 2020, in the middle of a pandemic, and now we are on the 6th of July 2022. And time really does fly, especially when you’ve been working from home most the time, if not managing this whole range of chaotic mess of hybrid meetings and the like.
The past few days, I’ve been missing. Specifically because I’ve been really busy trying to get things done just before ending my work. Even though I’m supposed to have been on leave, I’m still managing roles as a volunteer. This is the weird nature of a church worker’s job: does he exist as a volunteer still? Or just as a staff working?
In any case, there’s a lot that I had to manage in the past few days, involving looking through hundreds of group chats to see which ones I need to leave for, and which ones I should stay on in. Group chats are the usual channel of messaging for many working people in Singapore. I actually don’t know what’s the working norm in other countries, but in Singapore, it’s a group chat. Either on WhatsApp or Telegram messenger.
I’ve also been on a retreat, and getting to hear very interesting sharing from friends who are very like minded in our approaches to church. There’s definitely a sentiment that the church is changing, and I’m not sure how ready the existing church is for it. I wonder who will be the one to push that barrier in the time ahead, but I’m expecting it to happen some time soon.
But in the vein of all the new things that are happening, I’m also thinking, what of my YouTube and channel ideas and all of that. I’m just going to go for it, and start planning out parts of my life to film. I’m really nervous about it, and I’m glad that it’s been okay so far, but I am totally unsure how I will feel.
I’m currently questioning my aesthetic and theme, and if that’s how I want the world to see me. But at the same time, that’s the style that I’m the most used to. So is that okay? or is it not okay?
My brain makes all these weird decisions throughout the day, without actually doing anything. And that does not help me one bit.
I’m going to sleep now, because I had a very heavy farewell lunch today, and I skipped dinner, but I’m feeling the hunger starting to kick in a little bit. I think my body is just confused about what time it is and why my mouth isn’t moving.
I also spent the dinner food time rearranging my room instead. I like to start things on a fresh slate, and I would very much like to have a good fresh slate as I approach my month of new activity. Stay tuned to see how that’s gonna turn out!
My new job starts on the 1st of August officially, but 10th of August in reality, because I’ll be traveling and I really need a break.
I really need a break.