I have been thinking about this for the past few days, especially in the past week. Leading up to my birthday, I was keeping up with my writing pretty okay, maybe I missed a day or two, but in the few days of gap in writing, I am understanding that why I write is key.
More than that, the motivations why I continue to do something in a disciplined manner need to be clearly drawn out for myself.
I watched a few videos on people keeping small notebooks, and the place of writing thoughts or just doodling through the day. I thought those were absolutely perfect ideas. The only issue is its application in my own daily life. What would I do with all these thoughts? Where would I place these ideas and doodles? I have no answer.
And because I have no clear answer for myself, I don’t see myself starting out on them. The difficulty comes where I know the answer would reveal itself to me while I start out. But the steps to pull myself along to do something that I haven’t done for a very long time is extremely challenging. I don’t feel like doing it, and I don’t end up doing it.
I actually pulled myself out of bed today for a run. A simple step for me was to wake up too early, so I could clear all my morning tasks quickly, and then I was left with nothing to do. All I could imagine doing was going for a run. So the run came quite quickly.
But how will tomorrow’s run go? or the day after that too? I can’t imagine, and I need to find that reason for discipline somehow. I don’t think just the simple thought of doing it because it is good for me will work. But perhaps a certain goal that I think makes sense in the long run of things. I’ll work on this over the next few days in this blog, just for my own thoughts as well.